Thursday, 24 December 2015

0 Many Kind Of People

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

For me, the biggest challenge in dakwah is to face people with different kind. Everybody always has particular preferable kind of people. In dakwah, we need to face all people regardless their types. And to be a good muslim, we have to be patient. Some are easy to be managed, some are moderate and some are very troublesome.

Since I was not raised in comfort, somehow it makes me feel hard to face a pampered kind person that is very sensitive and always playing with emotions. I here am talking about men, not women which of course decorated with even more emotions. But then the wrong is always needed to be sent back to the way I am dealing with them.

It is of course not an easy thing. Ego has to be put aside to give way to heart to take its place and accept everyone as he is. 

Tuesday, 8 December 2015

0 Kids

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Children are innocent and they are very honest in doing anything. Their thoughts are away from modern contamination. That what makes dealing with them very amusing.

I met this one little girl undergoing dialysis theraphy. She gently greeted me despite being apparently lethargic. Another one I met was sarcoidosis suspected little girl happily playing around hospital ward and smiled each time I gave "come here" sign.

What a pleasure being kids. They do not have much to think.

Thursday, 3 December 2015

0 A Patriotic Dream

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Afternoon nap often gives me weird dreams. Few days before, I had a patriotic dream. What does that suppose to mean? It was just very random.

In an unknown location, there was this one middle age girl asked me, "How do you contribute to your country?"

I answered, "To serve the people and country as a kind of reciprocation for everthing they have given me."

It woke me up and made me think for a moment. That is how my life should be. Serve people and be beneficial to others.

Monday, 23 November 2015

0 Childhood

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Childhood memory always becomes very nostalgic and amusing each time it crosses my mind. Living as budak kampung was a very missing moment. Without getting busy with social media made friends and neighbourhood important and significant. Weekend was the most awaited time to play and do silly things. Ah.. what a memory.

I miss my childhood friends. We spent a lot of time together. The budak kampung generation in this village is no more present. Many new family migrating to this village, cutting trees, burrying lombong, building new houses. Our playground are no longer exist. The new generation's relationship is not like us before. They do not even know who live next to their houses. Everybody settles in the house, busy with facebook and whatsapp. Surau is only filled with above-50's generation. A very sad yet real fact.

What makes me sadder is that when I meet my childhood friends, besides calling me ustaz, they have been different. We had so much fun walking to masjid and reading Al-Quran together at night after playing in the evening. But now, sadly we cannot do the same. I am very glad to hear if they take good care of their prayers, at least. I have been fun getting the sound understanding of Islam and my very first friends are getting away from it. 

I always hope and pray that we are able to do good things together again. Allah bless us.

Sunday, 22 November 2015

0 Generalization

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

A very dangerous yet prevalence disease in social media which is generalization. Taking from a single doubtful source is not the way to judge someone. It must be otherwise taken from different trusted sources. The most untrusted source is something originated from an opposition of a party about the opposed party. Do not always trust what is told about UMNO from PAS and vice versa.

In this case, judging people, we need to be very particular. Have a sound mind away from any inclination to a particular party. It is almost impossible actually to have nil inclination, but it needs to be controlled as to not being bias and to be rational enough. That is what a truth seeker does. No matter from where it comes, truth is always truth.

A good way of delivering facts is perfectly shown in Al-Quran. When it named a group with a particular name, it did so by limiting people included in the group so as to not putting someone in the group he or she does not belong to, even in describing disbelivers or hypocrites. It taught us to be fair to everyone regardless his or her side.

We should think by ourselves. If it seems vague, refer trusted sources. World is surely much better when it is cured from this disease.

Thursday, 22 October 2015

0 Facing A Foe

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Before facing or dealing with a foe, the most important thing is to make sure that the foe is a real foe, not a misinterpreted one. A foe must be comprehensively defined as to not discriminate anyone. The worst definition of a foe is anyone who is different from us in any means. Like the famous ex-American president George W Bush said whoever is not with me is against me. This kind of notion will just make one having no friends.

After finely determining a foe, the point of argument should be ensured. Both parties need to understand the same thing so as to not fighting for different reasons. It is very common to have an argument resulted from different understanding of a particular issue. Like a group of men describing a box seen from different angles. Each sees it from different sides and keeps saying he is right. The truth is everybody is correct in what they see.

Then to see if the point of argument can be solved or be ignored. Some disputes are not worth to be involved. It just drags us to a lifelong discussion that eventually never ends. Why bother ourselves getting involve in those arguments. The best to solve it is by ignore it.

Finally is to face a foe wisely if it is the only choice available. Wisely as in using correct words, evidences and arguments at the right time. Sometimes one party is better and in the right side but loses because of its lack of communication or dialogue skills. The lack of those skills will unwillingly malign the one who is in the right side and consequently gives an opportunity to the unjust side to appear as it is right. This creates doubtness in community. It is significantly important to not just be in the right side but also to master the skills to deliver in a way people can accept.

Making foes is the last choice. Everyone is our friends until proven otherwise.

Wednesday, 7 October 2015

0 Communication

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

It is the time to change our communication skill to a better one. As everyday we are inevitably going to face people and need to be comunicated with each other physically or verbally, communication is always needed to be improved.

The basic general concept for me is to speak good or remain silent just like what the prophet has mentioned. This is the simplest way of improving communication. For example, it is just unnecessary to give an unpleasant comment early in the morning on a person who wears new shirt. His whole day may be affected and he may loose his positive mood. The easier, better way is to just say nothing. Or to sarcastically pointing in public, someone's inability to do things that he or she should have get used of like speaking in Arabic after 5 years staying in Egypt. Those are just unnecessary things without significant reasons to be mentioned.

As words of wisdom sounds, words are sharper than swords. It really is. By just changing some words in our conversations, a big change could happen, or by removing some. A good communication is the one gives positive mood to someone. When doing dakwah, we are taught to deliver good news before threats. So does in any conversation. We should try to avoid demeaning words or expressions.

Build positive wave in the community so as to make everboody feels alive and like having hope after whatever silly or bad things happened to them back then. Simple, isn't it? 

The very first words of Rasulullah after the establisment of city of Madinah were really making everbody feeling alive;

أفشوا السلام وأطعموا الطعام وصلوا الأرحام وصلوا الليل والناس نيام تدخل الجنة بالسلام

Spread salam, feed the hungry, be in touch with your kin,and pray while people are sleep at night, you shall enter paradise peacefully.

Do not raise voice unnecessarily, choose wise words, and discuss good topics. If none of these exist, seriously, say nothing is the best word.

Friday, 2 October 2015

2 Extreme Never Lasts

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

In doing anything, being moderate is always the best choice available. In medicine, everything has its normal range value. Respiratory rate should be between 12 to 20 per minute to be considered normal. Less than that is called hypopnea, on the other hand hyperpnea if exceeds 20. So does body temperature, blood pressure and pulse. What doctors need to do is to memorize the normal range and to examine patients if their body systems exceed the normal range.

However, extremes are present in any community or groups. The only reason is they have no idea as regard the normal moderate behavior they should practice. So instead, they go being extreme. Sometimes, these people are just blindly following their leaders. It is not their fault, some people are born to just be followers.

To be moderate, one should know what is normal and what is not or extreme. How can we say a particular action is extreme or normal if we do not know the opposite? In medical school, medical students need to spend at least two years learning normal human anatomy and physiology. Then the rest of 3 to 4 years learning the opposite. Then they will be able to graduate being competent, safe, moderate doctors.

Manner is one of the main reason, might be the objective of all practices in Islam, our prophet being sent to this world. Without manners, one never has the right to be called religious. Being just is a good manner, so does being moderate.

Having a glimpse on verse 143 from surah Al-Baqarah certainly makes us realize the importance of being in the middle of two extremes. 

Living with blood pressure 180/100 (normal is 120/80) is extremely risky. In any second, one can get hemorrhage, stroke, or even die of heart attack. The person will never last.

Saturday, 26 September 2015

0 Reviewing The Way Of Seeing World

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

It is still summer in Egypt. Current temperature is 36 degree celcius. And it is still Eid, streets are quiet from sounds. Usually I can literally hear car horn sound every 5 minutes. It is really unusual.

Summer reminds me of a ghazwah (military expedition) called Tabuk, happened in 8th of Hijrah. Although no real fight occured between Islamic troops and Roman, it did play a great role in the history of Islam. If we go seeing date farm during this time, we would notice every single tree is full of dates without any exception. For the people who depend on dates as staple food, it is a big challenge to go for an expedition at this time. The will to sacrifice makes this ghazwah one of the most important event in Islamic history.

There was a group of people at that time who did not take part in the ghazwah. They were not actually refused to join, but feeling hard to leave their farms. These people were not ordinary people. One of them was Ka'ab bin Malek, the one who was guaranteed paradise. Still, there is always obstacle no matter how good and pious we are.

Reviewing this event from the verses in surah At-Taubah (9:38), it clearly stated that the only factor contributing to the laziness and heaviness in joining the ghazwah is attachement with mata' ad-dunya (world's pleasures). When we get attach too much with pleasures and comfort, slowly but surely our heart will be indulged and laziness will be cultivated. It seems simple but extremely vital in a long run. The calling for sacrifice may happen any time that we should always get ready.

Let's review the way of seeing world. This is not a one-off process but a continuous. If a guaranteed paradise companion had a hard struggle detaching himself from dunya, how do we expect to make it easily?

Wednesday, 26 August 2015

0 Being Smart

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

We all know and hear a qoute saying 'do not work hard, work smart'. It is obviously not easy to do. Work hard is much simpler than work smart. We do not need to think much, just have extra effort and time. To work smart, it needs more than that. Sometimes we do not find an exact ways or formula to do it. All we need are creativity and courage.

Smart people work and make decision wisely away from being driven by emotions and society's expectation. They free to do anything. Nothing but themselves control the direction.

Saturday, 22 August 2015

0 Rushing

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

In any circumstances, rushing never be good. Even in a situation where a decision is needed immediately, rushing still does not have its place. I never believe that I have matured enough to make big decisions and to lead a family. But some decisions I believe that I have made them after being finely discussed and maturely consider all the pros and cons. This time, however, I have been quiet rushing, in making a big decision, although I thought it was good enough. I still could blame some parties for indirectly pushing me.

Still learning to be a mature guy. It is undoubtly not easy. May all my premature acts do not leave permanent dissapointments to the people who were involved in the situations.

Rabbi yassir.

Monday, 3 August 2015

0 This Is Not A Sinetron

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Following the norm of a developing country, political stage of my beloved Malaysia is getting hotter and hotter. To make a transition from a stage to a higher stage, instability is inevitable. Historian would not find it interesting to write a journal about Malaysia history if the story line was very simple and predictable just like the Sinetron drama.

Just imagine if PR was stable and PAS had no conflict with DAP, General Election 14 result would be very easy to predict, and if a movie was made from it, surely no place for it in the box office. Conflicts and confrontations are normal processes in achieving bigger things. Especially the aim is to build an Islamic nation suitable and inclusive for everybody regardless their races or religions, the tribulations should be more challenging.

These conflicts also have revealed the true colors of many people who were formerly hiding in suits of any forms as in robes, turban, songkok or tuxedo. It is easier now to distinguish groups that were formerly seemed to be the same. The seperation is not a seperation of good and bad, but the way of achieving everyone's targets. It will be more perspicuous for voters and supporters to choose parties of their favours. Everybody can benefit country at their best without any internal obstacles from their own parties. The one who benefits the most is us, innocent people.

May the truth prevail and I can tell great stories to my children in the future, not a mere Sinetron drama.

Saturday, 4 July 2015

0 Half A Way

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

17th of Ramadhan. It has been 17 days since the gates of Paradise are opened and the gates of Hell are closed. And it will remain so for about 12 days ahead. The environment in this month is literally superb. Allah's mercy is flooding in the street. Everybody is just feeling happy for no reason. Doing charity is not as hard as in other time. Everything is made easy. It is a miracle given by the only One who can do miracle.

However since we are human, it is very normal to get tired and lose stamina. In a 10 km running, the toughest part is in the middle as you just finish a half backbreaking running and have to do it once again. Pain over pain. At that moment, what is most needed is to stay calm and slow down a bit to not get fainted in the middle of the road. The thing is not to stop or else it is almost over as you start walking, it needs a great effort to get back to the phase you had before.

Have someone to follow from behind. We do not want to ruin the efforts we have built from the day one. And surely we want to graduate with flying colors.

Do not stop. Keep running. Slowly but surely we will get it done.

Monday, 22 June 2015

0 Utopia

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

To compare between Egypt and Malaysia, doubtlessly the homeland would be superior in most aspects. However, regarding Ramadhan, Egypt is far better leaving Malaysia. I never understood the meaning of "The Month of Al-Quran" until I came here. Formerly the phrase just lived in tazkirah and articles. The Qiyam prayer (tarawikh) especially is very touching that rarely can be found in Malaysia unfortunately.

May this Ramadhan be better than before. May Allah forgive us all.


Future is completely blind  to human. We never know, yet may predict, what will happen even a second after. I never thought of studying abroad. Being in the last class in most of the time during secondary school, making studying abroad an utopia for me. Then now I am here thousand miles from homeland. I never thought of speaking Arabic and English in real, not memorizing scripts to be presented in class. Then now I am doing so everyday. Never thought of entering medical school since everbody was brainwashed that medicine is hard like very impossible to study. Then now I am here almost finishing my fourth grade.

Ironically, when those impossible things standing before this pair of eyes, they are just left behind. Everything is there that it depends on me to chase and grab them or not. Otherwise, utopia will just be an utopia.

Wednesday, 17 June 2015

0 Marhaban Ya Ramadhan

بسم الله الرحن الرحيم

Streets are decorated with  lanterns.

Shops and restaurants are being lighten by colorful lights.

Mosques are spreading greeting cards titled Ramadhan Kareem Allahu Akram.

People are smiling and spreading salam when meet.

These are none other than the signs that the awaited Ramadhan is coming!

This is the month of Al-Quran, the month of reflection, and the month of good deeds.

The ultimate output and reasons of the existence of this one month divine program is to give us a chance to make a change. A change from a good person to the best person beneficial to not just muslim but to all mankind because Islam never came to muslim only yet to every single thing exists in this world.

May Allah guide us to go through this Ramadhan with success.

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan!

Thursday, 11 June 2015

0 Fly High But Lower Your Wings

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

It is hard to fly high, being a respected and known person in a society. It is even harder to keep being humble in spite holding those titles. We never know how we are going to behave when blessed with money and positions unless we have them. Having just known by our small society and being pointed as a leader is just very small that we do not have much to lose. Despite criticising corrupt leaders, or even ulama', just be fair to ourselves. Rememeber that we always have 100 percent chance to be like them or even worse when being in their position. Do criticise and reflection.

One of the best trait so far I know to be in a best leader is humble. I met that kind of leader and I swear being very happy to work with him. No being-controlled feeling. No hesitation to ask silly questions. No offence in giving any kind of opinions. That is the true leader! To guide not to control.

With low wings, everybody or anything can be murabbi. Seniors, juniors, children, elderly, muslim, ulama, non muslim. All of them are our murabbi indeed. Knowledge does not simply make us more superior that we can step on others. The more the knowledge the more the responsibility to guide others, not to control them.

Fitnah. It has been woken up. The deen becomes fitnah. Ulama becomes fitnah. In the name of deen, many things are made possible. What else we can do?

I suggest to close mouth tightly, stop talking unnecessary things about others and stop making enemies. Then seek for the ultimate truth.

اللهم أرنا الحق حقا وارزقنا اتباعة وأرنا الباطل باطلا وارزقنا اجتنابة

Saturday, 23 May 2015

0 Kun Anta

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

It is typical. When something weird, or I may consider it stupid, appears in the social media, it will be undoubtly viral. Dubsmash is the latest I guess. Contrarily, the more important issue like Rohingya refugee becomes the least to be concerned. Poor people. We rather choose to share stupid things.

Another viral weird thing is the song Kun Anta. The song is not but the videos of its song cover by girls, especially the tudung labuh girl. Despite the fact that the song has its own quality, it is the girl that makes it viral. Eventually, people start to forget GST, 1MDB and DS Najib issues that they strongly fight against. Humans are easily distracted when they have no clear and ultimate aim to chase.

Later, all of these issues will be completely forgotten. After a while another issue will appear. That is how the cycle repeats.

We need to choose what to read and to watch. Taking everthing is not the right way.

Friday, 15 May 2015

0 Aim High

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Of course we should do that. Rasulullah said that if we want to ask for jannah, ask for the highest. The problem here is to have the determination to stay along the route towards it. I want to graduate with mumtaz, being the best intern, taking MCRP and being a subspecialist doctor by the age of 35. Then to own my own hospital which is the most cozy and comfortable hospital in Malaysia. I also want to do charity, giving free services and help people around. I dream all these. The aim is crystal clear but the path is still dimly lit.

The challenge is to create a synergy between the dream and the path to achieve it. Having discussion with experienced people has taught me that learning from others is extremely important as to not wasting time and to be better than the previous generation. We do not want to create a plateau generation, or even worse a declining one.

Despite all that, faith is the most important factor. It may sound cliché but it is like the oxygen that is always been forgotten its presence and importance. Khalid Al-Walid r.a once, before he embraced Islam, made fun of the muslim for they were promised to be given Rom and Persian, which were the two biggest nations at that time. Ironically, after Khalid r.a embraced Islam, he was the one who did the thing he made fun of. We just totally blind on what exists next to us. I still remember how could I be so brave and enthusiastic that I wanted to put all the Form 3 male student, when I was  Form 5, in the usrah system. I still can't understand from where those hammasah came.

Talking about future, the key is to have faith and do not rush. Then comes the strategy, technique, etc. It sounds quite awkward for me to talk about this since I achieve nothing to be proud of, but I am saying this based on what I learn from people who have preceded me. When having a discussion with youths, mostly they offer strategies as a take-home message. On the contrary, the elderly usually stress on the need to have faith. Merge these two and the light is just a step ahead.

Friday, 8 May 2015

0 Focus

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Do not estimate the power of focus. A person can only be extraordinarily success when focus is there. Focus in not just a particular time, study for example, but focus as the worldview of life. In life, focus is a need, not a choice. Doing too many things in a time makes none of the single things becomes a revolutionary finding.

If we take a close look on the history of Renaissane, the starting point of the success of West world was after the French Revolution in 1789. What happened from that moment was people started to focus on what they were doing. Prior revolution life was restricted by the church. People could not do as they liked and everything just became stagnant. Post revolution revealed an ultimate liberty for the western people and they started to focus their thoughts on physics, economy and politics without being distracted by the church.

The very fundamental of our Ad-Deen is the syahadah لا إله إلا الله. Just look at the first thing before declaring Allah is the God. We exclude all other insignificant stuffs bothering our life. Then we can completely subject the entire life to Him. That is how things should be.

University. Why must we go to university to have a degree? Why don't we just study anywhere without bordered by time and particular syllabus? The answer is focus. You can't be a doctor if you study engineering and economy at the same time. You will lose focus and eventually none of the studies will give a fruitfull result. There must be a particular course in a particular university at a particular time.

I always wonder why couldn't the companions do da'wa and live in luxury. Mus'ab b Umair for example. Now I know the answer is to be focus. Doing da'wa with so many distractions from all the luxury would make him not doing anything.

Living in 21st century, so many insignificant things running out there. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, movies, games and the number is increasing. All of those things keep distracting us from the main actual goal. If we do not cease all those distractions immediately, we never can go far.

Do not estimate the power of focus. It does matter.

من حسن إسلام المرء تركه ما لا يعنيه

Wednesday, 29 April 2015

2 What Kind Of Doctor You Want To Be?

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

This questions keeps singing in my head. Still I don't know what kind of doctor I want to be or should I be. Being a doctor is tough especially when being a specialist in any critical specialities as Obstetric and Gynaecology, Cardiology and Surgery. One of the biggest concerns is time. Do I just want to be in the hospital serving physically unhealty people all day? When to serve people outside the hospital? 

I can't merge those two groups of people, in the hospital and outside the hospital. The population going to hospitals is too small and most of the problem don't originate from these people. Since I am always taught to directly serve people in the society, I just can't imagine how to do so when being inside the hospital most of the time.

Of course serving sick people is a very undeniable noble job. Many hadith telling us to visit sick people and give them present. Their prayers are very precious. However, our deen doesn't teach us to just do good deeds but to do the most important one. The government is not doing its job well, social problems are saturating and they badly need a guide. I can play my role in the hospital, my other colleagues will do the rest. Will that sufficient?

This thing bothers me quite hard. The journey of searching the ultimate and productive way to serve the society is an endless job. Current Mursyidul Am is a veterinarian, not far from my future career and he did very well in his life. The conflict between being a doctor and lack of chance of serving society is due to lack of understanding the thariq amal. I do and always believe that medicine is the best field for me. The challenge is to figure out the best way to contribute through this noble field.

Tuesday, 21 April 2015

0 Adapting

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

One-week travel with Ust Fadzil feels like living 10 years more. He always had something to tell us. From the first time he joined tarbiyah till he is right now. And the best part is regarding business! Indeed, we don't need to do much mistakes nor trial and error. What we need is to learn from others experience so that we can do much better from them.

All of sudden, when I went back home, I felt like being someone else. I just couldn't have the same language as they had. Conversations with them were just like talking to new people.

I need to adapt the new language I have right now.

Setting > Language > Ikhwah > Friends


Thursday, 2 April 2015

1 To Learn Is More Important Than Being Perfect

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

At the end of the day, what helps us the most is what we learn, not the result. In fact, mistake usually plays a better teacher than being correct all the time. Just read the stories of great people. Most of them, all of them, actually did mistakes much more than we do before becoming what they are today. What determines a legend is what happens post-mistakes.

Few days back, we had a group assignment presentation. Sadly, we did something not related to the title given, early diagnosis of primary open angle glaucoma (POAG). What we did instead was typical diagnosis of POAG. I might be the one first to be blamed, as the role of referring the doctor, Dr Ahmed El Sawy, was on my shoulder but I did not do it well enough.

The head of department of department 12 of Ophthalmology, Dr Khalid seemed to not accepting our presentation. He even asked our presenter to stop if the presentation did not corresponding to the title. Things happened and life goes on.

The doctors have my full respect! They have taught us to be precise in understanding and delivering informations, and to always refer to professional, doctor it is, before reaching a definite conclusion. Internet is not the ultimate teacher when you have great doctors just before you.

Ophthalmology lecture is over. End round exam is 4 days ahead. I really love this subject, the professors, doctors, nurses, patients, and everything in it. See you again El-Ramad!

A qoute from Dr Ahmed Abdullah keeps dancing in my head, "To learn is more important than being perfect".

Please pray for us for the upcoming exam. Thank you.

Friday, 27 March 2015

0 Values Live In Everything

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

People usually tend to fell stress and mad at something when it is against our expectation or interest. It is logic and normal as a human. On the contrary, good things would be percieved well despite being unexpected, even percieved better when it does.

If I was asked a question, "what is the most important and valuable thing you got being in tarbiah?", the answer would be the way of perceiving things. Things that have changed my life 360 degree. The rest of the changes, I name them side changes, come after the primary change. The former changes are things that most people, who I believe having sound hearts, are doing for nothing but to treat diseases in the society. The most effective way, however, in treating the diseases is by doing the later changes, the way of perceiving things it is.

I used to fell regret being in Egypt, despite it was not my first choice, for stress stimuli are everywhere to trigger me. There are not so much things to be proud of in Egypt superficially. The one who lives in Egypt would know. The buldings, feels like being in 70's Malaysia, just the pyramids what make Egypt famous. Otherwise, no reason to be here. The people more to trouble than giving help. The streets are decorated with all kind of wastes. All these factors, stress stimuli, would certainly make anyone does not want being in the country.

After all, everything might change when the centre of perceivement changes, and that is where the key located. Eventually, all the side changes would fly away. So much energy could be saved to be used in other way. Later than, be it as beautiful and cozy as spring or as hot as summer in Egypt, everything seems to be positive. Success or failure are only superficial, what more vital is the very inner side.

With this kind of change, certainly Cairo would be just as gorgeous as London or any places you may think, for values are not poor, they live and present in everything.

Tuesday, 24 March 2015

0 Basic Human Right

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

One of the most basic yet very important right should be given to others is to fulfill promise especially something related to time. When a date is agreed, then it must be obeyed by everyone involved in it. Since it is related to others right, we might take their time unconsciously. We never know how much they have sacrificed just to be early as agreed.

Time is more expensive than gold. Stealing time is a lot worse than stealing gold. And that is the very reason why harisun 'ala waqtihi is there among the ten muwasofat tarbiah.

Saturday, 14 March 2015

0 Future

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Two groups of people who are worth talking with, older people and children. The former group is due to precious experiences they have which never could be find elsewhere. The later is for they are innocent, free from bad thoughts and selfishness. Chatting with coevals would just make me having too much jokes with not so much benefits as the two groups before.

Future is one of the most creepy thing in this world. Everybody wants to know what is in front of them in the next 10 or 20 years. The service of tukang tilik which was(I am not sure today) very famous among Malay emphasizes the fact that everybody wants to know their future. Nobody really cares a lot as regard their past history compared to what is in front of them because they could not change it. 

Each time thinking and discussing about future, my plan always changes, not because I am hesitated yet due to refinement of understanding from time to time. Of course it is quite horrible and painful when I have to admit that society's interest should take the upper hand over personal interest. The more I be with this blessed Jamaah the more personal interest I need to put away.

What should I be after graduating? Do I need to further speciality? If it is what should it be?

The discussion is not a one-off session. It is a multiple session involving not just one murabbi but more than that. But the first prequisite is to always be ready for any unexpected circumstances that might happen. Ah, that is the most back breaking part!

Friday, 13 March 2015

0 Mainstream Creates Pseudo Needs

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Fashion usually gives a false definition on what is actually called needs. Everybody wants to live happily in this world as in fashion designer, businessman, product saler, etc. They promote their products not because they really want to help us having a better life, some may, but to give themselves a better life. They just want money so as they could buy foods, drinks, pay house rent and be happy. If we could think wisely, why things like busana muslimah which is obviously not practically used in normal daily lives is sold and promoted? Oh God, who on earth wants to wear those overatted, abnormal designs. It is designed and made not primarily for the muslimah to cover their aurat or intimate parts. The initial objective is money, yes money.

We do not need to follow all kind of mainstream particularly fashion. It steals our money a lot which is better to spend on something else. Practically speaking, when we buy an updated designed shirt, we do nothing than pleasing others and to show them that we have a beautiful shirt. We do not actually have problems with the old shirts, if it still could be weared, but just to have a new one. In other words, we spend money for someone else who does not directly give significant interchange.

It is indeed a test, in Arabic called fitnah. It never be a disgrace for wearing old stuffs as long as it does not affect your daily activities. More important is to know the objective beneath our action. We buy a handwatch because we want to know what time is it, not to be seen as a rich guy.

Desires should be balanced with needs.

Wednesday, 11 March 2015

0 Appendicitis

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

My dear batchmate, Azmi was admitted to hospital two days back. He went through an appendectomy operation, Egyptians sound it 3amaliah ziyadah. The doctor removed his appendix, an extra part of cecum which does not have a definite function than a business for surgeons, as far as I know at least. 

The background story of his case was quite tragic by the way. One week before, he went to see a doctor and had been missdiagnosed as having intestinal obstruction. The doctor prescribed him antibiotics and prokinetics as normal medications for a case of intestinal obstruction.

Later on after several days passed, no reliable improvement could be seen. He went again to see a doctor, another doctor, Dr Sahir she was. Pain felt in his right iliac region drove Dr Sahir to do ultrasound examination. Once confirmed appendicitis, she scolded friends who brought Azmi to the hospital for not bringing him earlier as his appendix had ruptured! Perotinitis had occured it if left for some period, it would lead to septicemia which is fatal!

Oh God, Dr Sahir should tell the former doctor who missdiagnosed him. Avoiding any unnecessary prejudices, I may consider the doctor was exhausted at that time and the fact that he was a human being who does mistakes sometimes.

Azmi was brought to operation theatre and went through a successfull surgery. May Allah give him a better health and wash away all his sins.

Monday, 9 March 2015

0 Glaucoma

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Today in outpatient clinic, I met an old woman aged nearly 80 years old with acute attack of angle closure glaucoma. She seemed to be very in pain with red eyes, and could not open her eyes for a long period. The doctor even could not do an applanation tonometry as she constantly moving her eyes. At last, the doctor just took her off with some medications. 

She came with a 30-year-old-like woman. When the doctor asked the woman what is the age of the patient, she replied that she don't know it. An old woman like that came to clinic with a woman who didn't know her age. Sounds weird. I bet she was not her daughter. Another question pops out. Where are her children? With whom does she live?

I wonder what would Egypt's president Abdel Fattah Al-Sisi and the previous corrupt leaders answer in front of Allah in the Mahsyar. Egyptians live in suffer while they sleep on money.

Allahumman suril islam wal muslimeen.

Wednesday, 4 March 2015

0 Solitary

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

One of the best part in my life is when nobody around in terms of nobody will disturb and distract me from focusing on what I want to do. Tea is there, computer is on, books are perfectly in position. Ah, that is so awesome. The journey of going through the books with the authors will be just amazing as laying on a beach chair at Pulau Kapas. New world is created and I could be anything I want. The new world is indeed so vast.

Ah, tea is running out. Need to get another one. 


Continue the journey....

Suddenly adhan heard. It is Asar time already. Feels like it is just Dhuhr couple minutes before.

Then I realize, the journey actually may pass the time zone. It runs way faster than the normal.

Let's just go to sleep and continue the journey the day after.

Monday, 2 March 2015

0 Doing Examination On Real Patient By Myself

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Since lecture ended early as usual, I changed my direction to the outpatient clinic instead of my beloved, cozy room with perfect bed. I met Dr Mina, the resident in one of the room in the Ophthalmology department in the clinic. He greeted me well and even asked my name! That was a very melting way of greeting a disturbing student like me.

"Assalamualaikum Dr, ana tholib sanah rab3a, mumkin bashuf some cases?"

"Okay, sanah kam?"


"Mumkin 3arif ismak hadretak eh lau sama7t?"

"Mina. What's your name?"


First patient was a middle age man with obviously small right eye. He had an atrohia bulbi secondary to a systemic disease which I forgot its name. Following patients were mainly myopes. They checked for their glasses powers. Dr Mina called me as he was doing the procedure for the first patient with myopia and taught me how to do it. First to read the power with different types of lenses for both eyes. Then to put suitable glasses on the examination spectacles testing for visual aquity. The score should be 6/6 so that the refraction error considered corrected.

Next patient came also with myopia. This time Dr Mina suddenly asked me to do by myself. I was partially astonished since I didn't yet learn the topic Error of Refraction. Pretending like I know everything, I just went to the patient and read the power reading. Started with right eye and everthing went well. The next eye came with reading 0.5. Before reaching 6/6 visual aquity the patient stopped me with "mish yanfa3sh". I increased the power to 1.0 and same thing happened which made me changed the power to 1.5. It suited the patient! The test was successfully done, alhamdulillah. It was not that hard though.

Dr Mina politely made an apologize to the patient for just sending this newbie student. He was so kind to his patients relatively to other doctors I had seen in the department. I thanked him and he reciprocated with the same words.

Went home hapilly for it was the first time for me doing examination on a real patient alone. Looking forward for more interesting stuffs.

Monday, 16 February 2015

0 Clinical Year

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Although fourth year in Cairo University is considered a clinical year, I am just being in the real clinical year after the second semester started. The previous two rounds(Forensic and Public Health) weren't really clinical subjects. So Ophthalmology it is my first subject followed by Ear, Nose and Throat later. 

After two days studying this subject and reading the books and atlas, I spotted at least two self-diagnosis problems in my eyes. Epicanthus and conjunctival naevus(I rather call it first level of Sharingan) without counting the (congenital) eye bags if it is accounted as a disease. If directional dyslexia is related to eye, it can also be included. Haha.

Anyway alhamdulillah for these beautiful eyes. Without them, I could not even know how do I look like.

Friday, 13 February 2015

0 One Replaces Another

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

It was a very nice experience being a member of highest committee of tanzim in Egypt. Albeit I did achieve nothing, I learned a lot and the experience somehow has changed me at least minutely. Now many changes happen and new faces going in front replacing the former. Wherever we might be, there are always chances for us to do good deeds. As long as we aware of the biggest mission and always prepare ourselves to serve Him in any way.

A task gets off and a new coming. Equip yourself, brother!

Wednesday, 28 January 2015

1 Repost

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

This article was written and posted 2 years ago in my batch blog. I wrote it with baris, so please read it. Heh.

 عَن الْإِمْتِحَانِ

الْإِمْتِحَانُ يَأْتِي مَرَّةً ثَانِبَةً وَهَذَا هُوَ شَيْءٌ عَادِيٌ فِي حَيَاتِنَا الطُّلَّابِ. وَعِنْدَمَا يَأْتِي الْإِمْتِحَانُ كُلُّنَا سَنَسْتَعِدُ نَفْسَنَا لِنُوَاجِهَ الْإِمْتِحَانَ بِالنَّجَاحِ. سَنَقْرَأُ وَ نُمَارِسُ التَّمَارِينَ وَ نَكْتُبُ الْمُلَاحَظَاتِ حَتَّى نَحْفَظَ كُلَّ شَيْئٍ مَكْتُوبٍ فِي الْكِتَابِ مِنْ أَصْغَرِ الْمَعْلُومَةِ إِلَى الْأَكْبَرِ. وَفِي وَقْتِئِذٍ سَنُصْبِحُ الطُّلَّابَ الْحَقِيقَةَ بِقِرِاءَةِ الْكُتُبِ لِكُلِّ وَقْتٍ لِكَيْ نَعْرِفَ كُلَّ شَيْئٍ لَمْ نَعْرِفْ قَبْلَهَا. إِذَا كَانَ الْإِمْتِحَانُ غَيْرَ مَوْجُودٍ بِالتَّأْكِيدِ لَنْ نَعْرِفَ وَ نَتَذَكَّرَ مَا دَرَسْنَا فِي الْجَامِعَةِ أَبَدًا.

أَمَّا فِي هَذَا الْمَقَالِ لَا أُرِيدُ أَنْ أَتَكَلَّمَ عَنِ الْإِمْتِحَانِ أَوْ إِسْتِعْدَادِ الْإِمْتِحَانِ بَلْ سَأَتَكَلَّمُ عَنِ الْحَالِ الَّذِي سَيَحْدُثُ بَعْدَ الْإِمْتِحَانِ أَوْ قِيلَ آثَارَ الْإِمْتِحَانِ. طَبْعًا نَتِيجَةُ الْإِمْتِحَاَنُ أَمَّا النَّجَاحُ أَوِ الْفَشْلُ وَلَكِنَّ مَاذَا يُقْصَدْ بِهِمَا؟ شَخْصٍ يَقُولُ النَّجَاحُ بِمَعْنَى حِصُالُ النَّتِيجَةِ الْمُمْتَازَةِ وَ الْفَشْلُ يَعْنَى لَمْ يَحْصُلِ النَّتِيجَةَ الْجَيِّدَةَ. وَأَمَّا شَخْصٌ آخَر يَقُولُ النَّجَاحُ لَمْ يَقَعْ فِي النَّتِيجَةِ بَلْ حَقِيقَةُ النَّجَاحِ هُوَ فِي الْجُهْدِ. كِلَاهُمَا صَحِيحَانٌ. النَّجَاحُ لَيْسَ فِي النَّتِيجَةِ أَوْ فِي الْجُهْدِ فَقَطْ.

أَحْيَانًا نَقْرَأُ وَ نَسْتَعِدُ أَحْسَنْ مِنَ الْآخِرِينَ وَلَكِنَّ النَّتِيجَةَ لَيْسَتْ جَيِّدَةً. أَيْنَ هُوَ الْعَدْلُ فِي هَذَا حُكْمِ الْعَالَمِ؟ الشَّخْصُ بِالْجُهْدِ الْكَثِيرِ لَمْ يَحْصُلِ النَّتِيجَةَ الْجَيَّدَةَ وَأَمَّا الشَّخْصُ بِالْجُهْدِ الْقَلِيلِ يَحْصُلُ العَكْسَ. وَكَذَلِك الْمُسْلِمُ لَا يَعْمَلُ شَيْئًا بِسَبَبِ النَّتِيجَةِ فَقَطْ بَلِ الْمُهِمُّ هُوَ الْجُهْدُ. اللهُ لَمْ يَرَالنَّتِيجَةَ وَلَكِنَّهُ يَرَى جُهْدَنَا. لَوْ كُلُّنَا نَلْتَزِمُ بِهَذَا الْمَوْقِفِ لَنْ نَنْدَمَ بِأَيِّ النَّتِيجَةِ الَّتِي حَصَلْنَا.

تَذَكَّرُوْا أَنَّ النَّتِيجَةَ مُهِمَّةٌ أَيْضًا وَلَكِنَّ الْجُهْدَ أَهَمٌّ. لَا تَعْمَلُوْا الشَّيْئَ بِالْجُهْدِ دُونَ التَّخْطِيطِ لِأَنَّ ذَلِكَ الْأَمْرُ سَيُضَيِّعُ الْوَقْتَ. الْمُؤْمِنُ لَاُبَّد أَنْ 
يَكُونَ مُنَظَّمًا فِي شُؤُونِهِ. ادْرُسُوْا وَاسْتَعِدُوْا بِالتَّخْطِيطِ لَيْسَ بِالْجُهْدِ فَقَطْ. وَأَخِيرًا كُنِ الْمُجَاهِدَ وَلَا تَكُنِ الْمُحْصِلَ.

Friday, 23 January 2015

0 Let's Keep Living For Another 3 Years

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

My superseniors in medical school have finished their MBBCh final exam today and are currently waiting for the results. As usual, congratulations to all seniors though I don't really have a great connection with them. But at least I know most of them, the guys of course since I have almost nothing to do with girls here in my university except assignment-group work-university stuffs, etc. Otherwise I know nothing even things related to mushrif. May Allah accept all their efforts and give them best results.

Meanwhile I am here waiting for another 3 years to complete this 6 year and a half course. Seeing colleagues graduating makes me feel much eager to finish this degree sooner. Then I just realize that I am just too kid to graduate. A baby clinical year student who just learns how to be a doctor. Be patient, dear. You still have much things out there to discover. And more importantly, I achieved nothing to be proud of. Not worth an Egyptian pound to pay back to my dear Malaysian community.

Let's have a better life. Medicine, Arabic language, murabbi skills, general and basic islamic knowledges, and the list goes on...

Tuesday, 20 January 2015

0 How I Wish To Have A Sound Heart

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I always feel jealous of others who have sound hearts. They have no grudges, bad perceptions or feeling of sabotaging others. Ah, if there was a scientific laboratory test for indicating the level of heart contamination, I pretty sure my heart would be at the worst level. It is not an easy task to clean it and I really do adore my friends who can easily forgive people, help others and don't hesitate at all to appreciate everyone around them. I would probably die before achieving that level.

You don't actually really need good physical and looks but a heart free from any bad feeling on people. You wouldn't even be able to get into Jannah with minute envy in the heart. The struggle of achieving a sound heart is a lifetime job. I have done many physical and mental works and I did succeed in most of them. But when it involves the heart, I am actually below the amature level.

Saturday, 10 January 2015

0 Shokran Lillah

بسم الله الرحمن الرحبم

When you give something to a homeless, certainly he/she would thank you by saying prayers or at least 'thank you'. It is a manner to say thank you when people help or give present to you. That is for the side of recipient. As for the donor, it doesn't mean that a donor is at higher level than the recipient albeit apparently the donor the one who helps the recipient. But actually the presence of recipient has helped the donor to do good deeds and in fact even the money the donor used to do charity is from God and doesn't belong to anyone but Him.

The most repected and noble person in front of Allah is indicated as regard the pious.

As we give money to the homeless the best asnwer to reply when they say thank you is, "shokran lillah" which means "thank Allah" for everything comes from Him.

Thursday, 8 January 2015

0 School

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Being in Egypt sometimes I feel like being in school. With many persatuan-oriented programs and the things related to it, it somehow makes me feel like 5 years ago. The self-made rules are making things more school-like. For me, university students should go beyond those levels. In fact, being overseas students is a very big advantage to gain more experiences.

A study shows that human brain can give more creativity and good thoughts when it is in its default state which can be achieved by emptying mind from stuffs like monitoring lists, meetings, etc. When the default state achieved, it can freely think and make powerful imagination that can create new findings as iPhone, Microsoft and Facebook.

As we are living with those stuffs 24 hours a day, we are actually controlled by the things we create. The bare ikhlas reason is not just enough to purify our actions, yes at the mininum level. Ah, it has nothing to do with that ikhlas-related matters. The matter is to have a free mind to think and make decision without any intervention within the frame of Al-Quran & As-Sunnah.

Life is indeed so easy to live. It is human who makes it difficult and look very complex. By returning back to the initial point where it was being easy, life would certainly be simple and adorable.

Thursday, 1 January 2015

0 New Year 2015

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Nothing to say and no need to say anything. What is needed is to do because the stage of speaking is not and never be the same as the stage of action. May this very short new year be better and a lot better.

January 1 2015,


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