Sunday, 31 December 2017

0 2018

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

New year comes again. It is 2018 this time.

A new day. 

Another new 365 days. 

New 12 months. 

Although everyone knows every minute, even every second, is new, we will still appreciate new year.

I am anticipating many big events in my life to happen in this year. As for now, let's finish the exam and graduate.

ربي أوزعني أن أشكر نعمتك التي أنعمت علي وأن أعمل صالحا ترضاه

كل عام وأنتم إلى الله أقرب

Saturday, 23 December 2017

0 You Learn Everything Until You Know Nothing

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

It has been a while since I last had this feeling after exam. The feeling of you know that you did not do well. The last time was during Paediatric final clinical exam back in fifth year. It is painful yet a beneficial feeling. It brings me back to the point where I just started to learn. It makes me realise that the things that I don’t know are more than the things I know.

I wonder why the doctor kept asking me, “Are you finished with the general examination?” after I had completely presented to her, findings on face, limbs and vital signs. 

I missed mental function, body built, appearance, colour and decubitus! (very basic)

Confident and mental preparation are not enough to walk into exam with prosper. Proper checklist should be made as to not miss anything.

Tuesday, 19 December 2017

0 Basic

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Every skills or knowledges has its foundation, the point where the knowledge expands from. If the basic is recognised and mastered, the rest will be much easier. Good education focuses on building foundation.

When you find difficulty in the middle of your study, back to the basic.

When you find trouble in the middle of your life, back to where you come from. 

إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون

We belong to Allah and to Him we shall return.

Monday, 20 November 2017

0 Of Marriage

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

From the first time I had the intention to end my single life, few years back, until this day, my view on marriage is always evolving. Being a teenager at the age of early 20s, what drived me was merely a blank desire without clear aim. I felt getting married at young age was cool, reflecting maturity of a guy without realising how immature I was at that time.

In the middle of the way, there was always something preventing me from going further. If it was not from my side, it was from the other. I kept trying and finding solutions after solutions. I met many persons. From friends, ustaz to even a syariah lawyer to get some opinions. 

But then, light was still not on my side as if He wanted to tell me that it was not the right time. Now I realise that it really was not. What I did was just to get it done, not to get it done right. As marriage is not simply saying the word 'I accept'. It is too difficult to think about. To be responsible of a woman who has been finely treated by her family for years.

How could someone be responsible of other if he could barely carry his own responsibilities?

How many couples out there who immaturely get married and raise children while they are lacking of finance, knowledge and responsibility?

Till the day come, there are plenty of things need to be worked on. I wish I had enough time to do so.

Monday, 30 October 2017

0 Idea

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Idea comes and goes. It may come at an unexpected time like in a toilet, during prayer, eating or sometimes when reading other's Whatsapp status. In fact, most great ideas, in my personal experience at least, get into mind during these unexpected trivial events. When I tried hard to find an idea, it would not come.

When you get the idea, swiftly find a pen and a paper to write it down. If not today, it would be useful on one fine day. Don't belittle any idea no matter how silly it may look. It may seem to be silly to others because it is beyond average intelligence. Who knows. Express your ideas. Don't be afraid to explore your mind.

Monday, 9 October 2017

0 Reading

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Reading is the message of the very first revelation.


First usually indicates an important message. Reading adds knowledge, opens mind, improves understanding, so does it build wisdom. Depending on situation, it can be a joy or a dull. When reading because of living, it is a joy. It can be a dull when it is just for an exam. The difference is apparent. The latter reason is stressful, hoping for a quick ending.

At the end of the day, exam is inevitable as a part of academic life. Every success man has to go through it before having any achievement. 

Suffer and pain. If not now, it will come later.

Sunday, 8 October 2017

0 Midnight

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

It is already 12.00 am and my eyes are still widely open. Too many thoughts running in mind. Exam, family, life, future. There is a say that when the reality is greater than the dream, one could never close his eyes. 

But right now, the reality is, the dream is better. 

Wednesday, 27 September 2017

0 Sincerity Will Appear

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Few news about death this week. This time, however, is not just merely a news. The one I did not get the chance to get acquainted with but has certainly given a significant hit in my life. I believe, he never expected to encourage and enlighten so many people, as he has done right now, before he passed away. His sincerity does the job. 

وقل اعملوا فسيرى الله عملكم ورسوله والمؤمنون

And say, do as you will, for Allah with see your deeds, and so will His messenger and the believers.

Nothing is possible when it comes to orders from The Almighty. As long as the sincerity is there, and it is done in the framework of sharia, it will be accepted, even if there is few mistakes in the middle of the track.

The message is clear, that the world is temporary, but the consciousness is still not completely there.

Friday, 22 September 2017

2 A Question With No Answer

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I always wonder, why akhawat always outnumber ikhwah, in every ocassions and localities. The question is frequently asked but never being answered seriously. I don’t think it is just about personality difference. Planning, commitment, brotherhood, seriousness. All of them should be considered. I don’t know until when this question will be asked and answered with the same script, or even worse be made as a joke.

Letting go a responsibility is a relief when you have done it great. Otherwise, it is a burden that will make you fell  unsatisfied.

Sunday, 17 September 2017

0 The Day

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

On this day, 24 years ago, I was born in a hospital in a small town in a state named Selangor. My family has always been telling me that celebrating particular date is not as important as making a progress in life. It is not necessarily to be celeberated, but more vitally as a reminder that aging is taking its process.

I still am learning and trying to be a good human being, minimising mistakes, asking forgiveness for all mistakes done.

Thursday, 7 September 2017

0 Home

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

After going to many kampung in Terengganu, namely Kampung Surau Haji Daud, Kampung Bukit, Kampung Atas Tol, Kampung Chendering, Kampung Kubang Ikan and many more, certainly the most beautiful and the best is my own playground, Kampung Sungai Kantan.

Home sweet home.

Saturday, 19 August 2017

0 No Escape

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Some things have no escape from being thought about. After repeatedly trying to convince the mind to defer, the soul raises it back. The fact that nothing can be done makes it having more reason to think about. Nobody wants to be bothered by buzzing thoughts of uncertainty, especially when exam is going to be soon. The feeling of insecure is of multifactorial that needs just a small dose of reasurrance from the right person.

It is between two big walls. The thought will keep buzzing while not much, or nothing, can be done.

Writing down what the soul is saying not to seek for a solution, rather trying to tone it down.

Monday, 31 July 2017

0 Change

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I do not know why. The word 'change' for Malays, is actually quite new in their(our) vocabularies. Since the independence, Malays are more or less the same particularly in the way of thinking. We have not evolved much, loving to remain in the comfort state we are currently in.

Unlike Chinese and Indians, they are more versatile and willing to make a change. In politics, for example, MCA and MIC were the most popular parties for Chinese and Indians during the early years after the independence. As time passes, corruption after corruption, lies after lies, they move to another parties as in DAP and GERAKAN. As for Malays, UMNO is always the choice. The ones who voted for UMNO before are the one who are going to do the same today. The same goes to PAS. The voters are the same persons. After the parents pass away, the children will continue the culture.

Knowing the fact that politics is not white and black, what is right today may be wrong tomorrow, today's enemy can be tomorrow's friend, change is inevitable. I do not want to point which party is the best as it is everyone's right to choose. What bothers me is the willingness of our people to get out from the comfort zone when necessary. We love to look at the past history to unaccurately justify what is apparently wrong today. UMNO was the one who brought merdeka to Malaysia, we must appreciate them by always giving votes to them despite what happen. PAS is the first islamic party in Malaysia, every true muslim must always choose PAS.

In discussion of fiqh, one can only follow Al-Imam As-Syafie. Who follows other Imam will be labelled as Wahabi. If you do not recite qunut during Fajr prayer, everybody will suspiciously stare at you. Praying after accidentally touch an opposite gender without redo an ablution is unacceptable. Ironically, in discussion of aqidah, we give more space to be different, in which we should be more strict.

In Egypt, Malays are living in their small community. We do not really mix with Egyptians. We build our own apartments, mosques and groceries. We only join one student association despite having dozens of associations.

This pattern of thought, unfortunately, delays our development. We are having fun in a small world that we create having thought that we are doing good while people around us do not even feel our presence.

If I were to be a politician, which I used to dream of, one of the very first intervention I would make in our education is to get rid of this mentality.

Qouting from a senior politician, "In politics, person or party is not important, what more important is the objective," I completely agree with this politically wise statement. If we do not move and make changes, we will surely be left behind.

Saturday, 29 July 2017

0 Purity Of Life

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Is everything we see today real? 

The foods we eat, are they genuine? 

Even the life we live in, is it still pure?

Sometimes, I feel like living in an isolated countryside, away from people just to have a fine life. Clean from any polutions, be it in food, air or thoughts. Slowly but surely, consuming bad foods, impairs body functions in various ways.

In the middle of poverty and lack of wisdoms, people still concern about their physical appearance. Everybody wants to look perfectly beautiful. Everyone is obsessed with the thought that physical appearance is the main reason for happiness, despite knowing very well the phrase 'do not judge a book by its cover'. Beauty products overpass moral and intellectual products. We can hardly mention millionare who sells books. On the other hand, most of beauty products entrepreneurs are having money flowing under their feet.

What kind of world we are actually living in?

Women are the main subject of discussion. Pornography fills every ads. Women bodies are exploited to attract buyers. Rape news are our daily snacks to an extent that we feel hopeless. Few days before, there was a news of a seven year boy raped a six year old girl! The world is seriously going mad.

Needless to say, family institution is overlooked. Boys and girls are seeking only pleasures without wanting to be accountable!

Who should think about all these problems?

On whom we can rely on?

Politicians? Religious authority? Goverment? 

Life has lost its purity. People are only trying to meet society's demands and expectations in the hope that, in doing so, they would be happy although the fact that they would not. We need to get back the radar we were given before we threw it away as we saw things that we thought were better.

Wednesday, 28 June 2017

0 Words

 بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Words can bring love or hate. 

Two people may fall in love and be together because of words. Two nations may declare war against each other because of words.

The most powerful single gift to a prophet from Allah is in the form of words.

To utter good words is not an easy act to do. To encourage and give compliment sometimes is more difficult than to criticise and condemn. It is an art, to speak good and be silent when words are not necessary.

Let's learn to speak nice words, encourage others, and avoid clashes.

Friday, 23 June 2017

0 Back For Good

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

The hardest part of being a murabbi is to release mutarabbi and pass it to another murabbi. At that time, I just realised too many rights had not been fulfilled. May Allah forgive all my mistakes and flaws and give them a much better murabbi.

It certainly would not be an easy job.

Wednesday, 31 May 2017

0 Ramadhan

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Ramadhan never fails to give me something. This year's Ramadhan, particularly, is very special as it would be the last in Egypt. Ramadhan in this blessed land has given me a new dimention of going through the holy month. It taught me how to appreciate this month when it is describe as the month of Al-Quran as it really is. 

The best moment is the night. First of all because we can eat and drink, so that you have more energy. Second is the prayers. In this month only we can have the worldview of Al-Quran as we go through the whole book as imam would recite every night.

This is truly a blessing from Allah.

Isolation and tears. Those are the themes for this Ramadhan.

اللهم بارك لنا فى هذا الشهر العظيم

Friday, 5 May 2017

0 The Conflict Between Truth And Falsehood

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Last time, we had an interesting discussion during usrah at one of our members' apartment in Hayyu Thamin. The discussion circulated around truth and falsehood, and the conflict that happens in between them. This is a very common issue presenting in the society, particularly among Muslim in Malaysia, also including other Muslim all around the world.

The current world we are living in is not painted as white and black. There is so many grey zone in between. Looking at religious texts as white and black is a kind of dangerous approach, as one could easily put labels on different groups or people.

The distinction is not between believers and non-believers. That is quite apparent, but when it comes to different groups among Muslims, dubiety starts to knock the door. Which group is the truest, or nearest to the truth? We have no one to give final word or to decide which of them is the best. Unlike during the era of prophet, it was obvious that whoever with the side of prophet was on the right side while whoever against prophet was against the truth.

Sometimes, we are convinced with our side after being explained all the rationale behind every actions. Then, when the other side gives its rationale, it eventually makes us think again.

All of these doubts and ambiguities oftenly make people being confused and decide not to participate at all afterhand, especially when this issue is being used by certain parties for any personal reasons.

So, what to do?

Keep learning and searching for the truth. Always be open for any kindness from any sources. Hold your words and stop judging people. Finally, always pray that Allah guides us to the truth. He never wastes every effort aiming His redha.

اللهم أرنا الحق حقا وارزقنا اتباعه وأرنا الباطل باطلا وارزقنا اجتنابه

Thursday, 13 April 2017

0 Rules

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

'Rules are made to be broken'

My professor likes to repeat this phrase. As rules are made to be a reference, they are also to be broken. In terms of education, the highest standard should be taught. In terms of practical, some of the rules are not applied but students should be aware of the ceiling above their head.

When I was in secondary school, one of my usrahmate brought his phone to school. It was obviously not allowed for students to bring a phone to school. But if it was not because of that, we would not be able to contact our naqib to have an usrah.

People who fight for justice all over the world. Many of them go against the rules in the place they are living in. Just have a look at Muslim Brotherhood members in Egypt who have been jailed and tortured for going against the rules of Egypt's tyrannical government.

It is very irony. 

These people teach me one very important lesson, it is to not being coward to go against the rules or the norm, as long as it is the truth. 

How can we be different if we wake up, sleep and do the same things like others do?

Friday, 17 March 2017

0 Thde Resuylt

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

The result of what we do depends on how much effort we give on it. The more serious we are, the better would be the result.

Expect failure if we keep playing around.

*you see, even the title is lightly spelled

Saturday, 7 January 2017

0 Past

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I am missing Mansoura. The place, restaurants, stadium and mostly, the people. A brief visit might satisfy this feeling.

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