Wednesday, 22 January 2014

0 Exam Is Over

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Exam is over. Parasites went smoothly and my winter break has started. Last night the university announced the extension of vacation for two weeks ended up with a month break. It was a good news and also a bad news on the other side. The good one is I can spend more time for extracurricular activities and of course to compensate what I'll loose for the the first 2 weeks of the break by reason of my subconscious, egocentric decision. The bad part is the final exam will may be delayed and if the circumstance happened, summer break will be cut down. Or if not, the curricular schedule will be badly packed and ferrari lectures will take their place. For sure that's gonna be worse.

Lately Malaysia has been filled with many issues; COMANGO, kalimah Allah, the Malaysian family in Sweden. These issues have gotten attentions from many parties. Each gave their opinions and it has conspicuously showed the true colours of them. These issues were translated differently in accordance with different background knowledge. Some translated with a very funny version. Unless they don't carry any good name, it's okay then to understand any particular issues differently. The problem is some parties carrying good names did something that shouldn't be done. They gave bad perceptions about the names they carry and consequently contaminate it. Then, the sentiment-based people will only heat up the situation. They keep share and spread the words assuming that they were right. Finally Malaysian's folks are educated with these kind of things. Sentiment-based, say a word without thinking, obsessed with own party, etc. 

Argh! What happened to my country? So so so many works have to be done. 

Thursday, 16 January 2014

1 Undiscussed Decision

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I made a decision without telling the one I should discuss with. I just did it for the sake of myself. Eventually, it caused a lot of troubles. Great. So I told my naqib regarding my selfish decision and he just simply replied, "moga Allah permudah"

I didn't know how to respond. His words gave numbers of meanings that keep haunting me. I was the one who made the decision, so I have to bear it.

Wednesday, 15 January 2014

0 We Will Not Go Down

بسم الله الرحمن الحيم

A blinding flash of white light,
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight,
People running for cover,
Not knowing whether they're dead of alive,

They came with their tanks and their planes,
With ravaging fiery flames,
And nothing remains,
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze,

We will not go down,
In the night without a fight,
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools,
But our spirit will never die,
We will not go down,
In Gaza tonight.

Women and children alike,
Murdered and massacred night after night,
While the so-called leaders of country afar,
Debated on who's wrong or right,

But their powerless words were in vain,
And the bombs fell down like acid rain,
But through the tears and the blood and the pain,
We can still hear that voice through the smoky haze,

We will not go down,
In the night without a fight,
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools,
But our spirit will never die,
We will not go down,
In Gaza tonight.


They will not go down. So do we, ain't we?


Tuesday, 14 January 2014

0 People Don't Have Power Over You

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Happy birthday to our beloved Prophet pbuh. His efforts have made us a better person today that knows who is Allah and what should we do in this temporary planet. Keep saying selawat and pray for our brothers all over the world.

I watched Hitler movie last few weeks and I found that the movie was great even though my housemates said that it wasn't. I somehow have got admired to Hitler. Lulz. Not because of his ideology but of his great personality and confidence. He came from an ordinary family. He had a very high aversion towards the Jews as he claimed that the Jews had been the causes of the destruction of Germany. The Jews took their money and abuse them. So he formed a team to spread and struggle his ideology against the Jews. In a short time, he managed to attract many people and had become a great political party that finally ruled Germany. He died through suicide and his story ended there.

In that story, Hitler was not a big guy physically but with a great and strong mind. He had been provoked many times and even got jailed. Just after he came out of the jail, he continued his battle. In fact, he started at first as an ordinary man without money, weapons and even friends. How he can be so strong? He knew that people have no power over him. People can force him to do anything but he was the one who decided whether he wanted to do it or not. Finally, nobody can defeat him because of his high level of self-confidence although his ideology is not so good and applicable at that time.

One fact that we have to know is the ideology of Hitler is not confirmed yet to be efective and productive. At last, it was proven not effective and had many flaws. And, Islam that we follow has been confirmed to be the most justice and perfect system for the mankind. It is proven in al-Quran and also in the past history. We should've been better than Hitler. All we need to do is implement it in our life with zero doubt.

What else do we waiting for? Just grab the confidence and spread the words.


Saturday, 11 January 2014

0 You Are Responsible For Yourself

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

We live in a community. We have family, friends, mates, neighbours, teachers and lecturers. Our life is interdependent with each other. Mother loves her son and the son reciprocates by being nice to his mother. Friend needs friends so that he can spend his time with them. One completes the other one so it forms a complete mutual cycle. Same principle applies to the relation between us and environment. We give carbon dioxide and take oxygen from the tree. We give the cattle food so that we can have grilled beef. Heh.

When we say about living in an interdependent cycle, each problem occurs in the middle of the cycle will affect the whole course of the cycle. If the tree takes oxygen instead of carbon dioxide, human population will die. Also if the cattle doesn't eat the food given, maybe it will eat us. Err, grilled human. I bet it will not gonna be pleasant. The problem is when the element in the cycle doesn't play its role and in this case, the element refered to human. We can't blame cattles for not being tasty. It's us who give them unhealthy food. When the temperature arises, we can't be pointing finger to the trees as we are the one who cut them into papers. So, human is the culprit in this case.

Evil (sins and disobedience of Allah, etc.) has appeared on land and sea because of what the hands of men have earned (by oppression and evil deeds, etc.), that Allah may make them taste a part of that which they have done, in order that they may return (by repenting to Allah, and begging His Pardon). [Ar-Rum:41]

Although our action will affect others, it doesn't mean that they are really depend on us. For example someone can still live after he/she lost his/her friends and a mother doesn't really need payback from her son/daughter. If we do something it still affects others but they are not depend on us. At the end of the day, all your doing will come back to yourself either bad or good. It won't go to others. In fact, many orders in al-Quran are subjected to one person.

Invite (mankind, O Muhammad pbuh) to the Way of your Lord (i.e. Islam) with wisdom.... [An-Nahl:125]

Then when you've taken a decision, put your trust in Allah, certainly, Allah loves those who put their trust (in Him) [Ali Imran:159]

The word 'invite' in the first verse, if referred to Arabic language the pronoun used is you (one person). So does the word 'you' in the second verse. On the other hand, we will be asked in the hereafter individually. We are not dependent to someone else and nobody can help us. It's us who decide ourselves.

No person earns any (sin) except against himself (only), and no bearer of burdens shall bear the burden of another [Al-An'am:164]

Take care of yourself and don't get busy with others mistakes. You are responsible for yourself.


*ah I've an exam tomorrow and I haven't finished study yet! Please pray for me.

Friday, 10 January 2014

0 I Miss The Atmosphere

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I've been here for 3 years and I don't think that I've gotten myself a better person or at least a different person in a good way. I went to Faris' home and he served me some food and drinks. We talked a lot and I really like that moment. When he gave me some taujihat I somehow felt a bit awkward. Lulz. Obviously my heart has turned badly dark. Then I realized that I've gone quite far from the supposed atmosphere. I miss the atmosphere living with people who have the same thought as me. I don't get that much here. 

I created my own team last year and we'd planned everything. Suddenly coup de tat happened and all my team members went back to Malaysia continuing their studies there. Great. I lost my team in a blink of an eye. I don't want to blame As-Sisi but he also take part in this case. He did the coup! So now I am really craving for a new team and I'm dreadly dying. Yet it's nonsense to regret and craving for something without doing nothing. I don't do feelings and crying. I'm not needing people to depend on, just I can't do my job perfectly without them. If I miss the atmosphere, then I've to make it in my place. I don't have anyone to make it for me.

Then when you've taken a decision, put your trust in Allah, certainly, Allah loves those who put their trust (in Him) [Ali Imran:159]

Let's move on. 

All is well.


Thursday, 9 January 2014

0 Don't Hesitate

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

When you have an intention to do something, and you have been very sure that it is a good deed and gives more benefit than harm, then just do it. Put away all the hesitation 100 feet under the sea. It is syaitan who hesitates you. He says that your doing isn't good. People will throw you away and don't want to be friend with you. You will lose your money, power and time.

And say (O Muhammad pbuh) "Do deeds! Allah will see your deeds and (so will) His Messenger and the believers...." [At-Taubah:105]

We are asked to just DO it and leave the rest to Him. Easy huh? Yeah because it is always easier said than done. I had experienced it and it really sucks. I was hesitated and suddenly someone did the thing that I had intended to do. Nothing happened instead it went greater than I thought. Congratulations.


Wednesday, 8 January 2014

0 Hurry Up! Train Is Moving!

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

[Train sound]

N: Have you bought the ticket?

M: Oh. Where should I buy it?

N: Oh God, how can you don't know? You should have bought it last week.

M: Hmm. I am sorry. So how can I get it?

N: There (pointing to ticket counter and the queue was very long)

M: How can I get it, the queue is very long!

N: I told you to buy it last week. See what happened now.


[Train was about to move]

Conductor: Hurry up! Train is moving!


N: Train is moving. I have to go now.

M: Can you please wait for me untill I get the ticket?

N: Sorry, I can't. It's too late. (N entered the train)


M: Ah wait! I got the ticket already! (M tried to catch the train but he failed)


[The train left]

Tuesday, 7 January 2014

0 Thinkmate

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

7th of January is a Christmas Day for the Coptic Christians. Here in Egypt, the day is declared as a public holiday. In the high political temperature of current Egypt situation, anything can happen when there is a public holiday. Egyptians are highly unpredictable. They can march, fight, throwing bottles, and even shoot a gun. Everything might happen and had happened before. So we have been warned to be more cautious during this day. Anyhow alhamdulillah, nothing bad happened up till now. Everything went as usual. May God help the Egyptians to bring back their country to a better state.

I was thinking to find a new thinkmate. All my thinkmates have gone to Malaysia continuing thier studies there. So I am here alone. It is been a long time to not discuss about heavy topics or issues. My mind has starved from those things. If things continue like this, my mind may be atrophied. Our minds are just like muscles. When we work them, they will grow. Otherwise they will get shrinked. If we don't use our minds, shrinkage will occur. When someone asks me for an opinion, I can't give him the best. I just realized that my mind has started to shrink. Oh God, please make it bigger. 

I have many friends and I am having a lot of fun together yet freinds aren't just for fun. I don't need much fun or kindness from others. I just need a place to think and struggle my mind. Being stupid is a worst thing in this life. Even if you have money, friends and power you are nothing when you are stupid. The best time to enchance mind is during this period of study. We have a lot of time to do so. Don't say that you want to start during work, for sure you don't have time.

I still don't find that kind of mate here. Either I like or not, I have to find one. I have regretted a lot being a blind-current-issues person. Be a learner, be a thinker. You will prosper.


Monday, 6 January 2014

0 Planning For Future

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Today I met officers from my sponsor, JPA. There were two of them, En Zikril and En Sharif. I was the first to enter the room. How excited I was. Actually I went early because my friend asked me to help him settle about food for the meeting. We talked a lot especially about future planning. En Zikril said that our future job as a doctor is uncertain. Anything might happen as number of medical graduates is increasing every year. We have to super struggle from now.

One of us asked how if we don't pass the post-graduate interview for the housemanship. En Zikril answered that we have to apply for another interview but also there is still a chance for not getting a job as a doctor even you have graduated as a medical bachelor. So cool huh? Everybody frowned and started to think of what will happen in the future. Some of us may have regretted choosing medicine. Lulz. Then they continued asking any other occasions that might happen. Ah great. They have created many other bad possibilities. This made me feel more like a jerk.

I was thinking that kind of questions were likely made they feel less confident. They scared of not getting work after graduated. The competition is getting heavier and we are still in the same pace. How does that beneficial to us? We already knew about this and we can't do anything about it. It is out of our circle of influence. Stop complaining and worrying, start bulding and influencing what we can.

I asked my murabbi once how can I contribute to DnT as a doctor. He said that doctors can't do much in hospitals. Either we like or not, we have to face the society directly. He was trying to say that hospitals is not an ideal place to do DnT in this current situation. So he suggested me to build a private hospital and use it maximally rather than working in a time-set government hospital. Hmm. Somehow I accepted what he said but also not satisfied in some matters. 

After a long-time thinking I concluded that I have no clear future planning. I don't know what specialist should I pursue and what can I do practically to give a maximal contribution to society. Of course giving contributions is not just being a nice doctor, everyone can do that.

Start planning from now. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. World is moving faster than you think and it keeps getting faster. Take a Ferrari instead of Proton. It is expensive but worth.


Sunday, 5 January 2014

0 First Paper Of Third Academic Year

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I just realized that I haven't made any post since 4 months ago. Wow. After my friend from Jordan poked me at my Facebook wall by posting my blog's link, I almost forget that I have a blog. To give reasons, I don't have any. Yeah. Let's start up again.

Today is the start of the journey of mid-year examination for the third-year student of Kasr Al-Aini Medical School. We started with the hardest subject, Pathology. Everything went smooth except for three questions. Two of them were totally made me screwed because I didn't read that parts well. Anyhow the third question made me unsatisfied because the question was a not-should-be-asked question. This kind of question that has made me feel the karma of being an exam-oriented student that I am always want to running from it.

I don't target for A. I just hope that what I am memorizing and studying will be usefull practically in my life as a doctor or a muslim. I am not interested in something that is not practically used in my life. Just take a look to the Prophet's companions. They took some verses from the Prophet and implemented them in their lives before taking new verses. They were not just memorized yet they used the verses in their daily activities.

Don't bother yourself with something that is not useful. We don't have abundant of time to be wasted by those things. Time is very short, believe me. I mean it literally. Now I have to get ready for 5 pounds to redeem the wrong-answered questions. I do regret for the two wrong-answered questions by I don't regret for the third one. Heh.

Keep praying for our brothers and sisters who are always struggling for the rights.



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