Life | Notion | Future

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم People usually tend to fell stress and mad at something when it is against our expectation or interest. It is logic and normal as a human. On the contrary, good things would be percieved well despite being unexpected, even percieved better when it does. If I was asked a question, "what is the most important and valuable thing you got being in tarbiah?", the answer would be the way of perceiving things. Things that have changed my life 360 degree. The rest of the changes, I name them side changes, come after the primary change. The former changes are things that most people, who I believe having sound hearts, are doing for nothing but to treat diseases in the society. The most effective way, however, in treating the diseases is by doing the later changes, the way of perceiving things it is. I used to fell regret being in Egypt, despite it was not my first choice, for stress stimuli are everywhere to trigger me. There are not so much things t

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم One of the most basic yet very important right should be given to others is to fulfill promise especially something related to time. When a date is agreed, then it must be obeyed by everyone involved in it. Since it is related to others right, we might take their time unconsciously. We never know how much they have sacrificed just to be early as agreed. Time is more expensive than gold. Stealing time is a lot worse than stealing gold. And that is the very reason why harisun 'ala waqtihi is there among the ten muwasofat tarbiah.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Two groups of people who are worth talking with, older people and children. The former group is due to precious experiences they have which never could be find elsewhere. The later is for they are innocent, free from bad thoughts and selfishness. Chatting with coevals would just make me having too much jokes with not so much benefits as the two groups before. Future is one of the most creepy thing in this world. Everybody wants to know what is in front of them in the next 10 or 20 years. The service of tukang tilik  which was(I am not sure today) very famous among Malay emphasizes the fact that everybody wants to know their future. Nobody really cares a lot as regard their past history compared to what is in front of them because they could not change it.  Each time thinking and discussing about future, my plan always changes, not because I am hesitated yet due to refinement of understanding from time to time. Of course it is quite horrible and painf

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Fashion usually gives a false definition on what is actually called needs. Everybody wants to live happily in this world as in fashion designer, businessman, product saler, etc. They promote their products not because they really want to help us having a better life, some may, but to give themselves a better life. They just want money so as they could buy foods, drinks, pay house rent and be happy. If we could think wisely, why things like busana muslimah which is obviously not practically used in normal daily lives is sold and promoted? Oh God, who on earth wants to wear those overatted, abnormal designs. It is designed and made not primarily for the muslimah to cover their aurat or intimate parts. The initial objective is money, yes money. We do not need to follow all kind of mainstream particularly fashion. It steals our money a lot which is better to spend on something else. Practically speaking, when we buy an updated designed shirt, we do nothing t

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم My dear batchmate, Azmi was admitted to hospital two days back. He went through an appendectomy operation, Egyptians sound it 3amaliah ziyadah . The doctor removed his appendix, an extra part of cecum which does not have a definite function than a business for surgeons, as far as I know at least.  The background story of his case was quite tragic by the way. One week before, he went to see a doctor and had been missdiagnosed as having intestinal obstruction. The doctor prescribed him antibiotics and prokinetics as normal medications for a case of intestinal obstruction. Later on after several days passed, no reliable improvement could be seen. He went again to see a doctor, another doctor, Dr Sahir she was. Pain felt in his right iliac region drove Dr Sahir to do ultrasound examination. Once confirmed appendicitis, she scolded friends who brought Azmi to the hospital for not bringing him earlier as his appendix had ruptured! Perotinitis had occured i

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Today in outpatient clinic, I met an old woman aged nearly 80 years old with acute attack of angle closure glaucoma. She seemed to be very in pain with red eyes, and could not open her eyes for a long period. The doctor even could not do an applanation tonometry as she constantly moving her eyes. At last, the doctor just took her off with some medications.  She came with a 30-year-old-like woman. When the doctor asked the woman what is the age of the patient, she replied that she don't know it. An old woman like that came to clinic with a woman who didn't know her age. Sounds weird. I bet she was not her daughter. Another question pops out. Where are her children? With whom does she live? I wonder what would Egypt's president Abdel Fattah Al-Sisi and the previous corrupt leaders answer in front of Allah in the Mahsyar. Egyptians live in suffer while they sleep on money. Allahumman suril islam wal muslimeen.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم One of the best part in my life is when nobody around in terms of nobody will disturb and distract me from focusing on what I want to do. Tea is there, computer is on, books are perfectly in position. Ah, that is so awesome. The journey of going through the books with the authors will be just amazing as laying on a beach chair at Pulau Kapas. New world is created and I could be anything I want. The new world is indeed so vast. Ah, tea is running out. Need to get another one.  Done.  Continue the journey.... Suddenly adhan heard. It is Asar time already. Feels like it is just Dhuhr couple minutes before. Then I realize, the journey actually may pass the time zone. It runs way faster than the normal. Let's just go to sleep and continue the journey the day after.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Since lecture ended early as usual, I changed my direction to the outpatient clinic instead of my beloved, cozy room with perfect bed. I met Dr Mina, the resident in one of the room in the Ophthalmology department in the clinic. He greeted me well and even asked my name! That was a very melting way of greeting a disturbing student like me. "Assalamualaikum Dr, ana tholib sanah rab3a, mumkin bashuf some cases?" "Okay, sanah kam?" "Rab3a," "Mumkin 3arif ismak hadretak eh lau sama7t?" "Mina. What's your name?" "Muhammad," First patient was a middle age man with obviously small right eye. He had an atrohia bulbi secondary to a systemic disease which I forgot its name. Following patients were mainly myopes. They checked for their glasses powers. Dr Mina called me as he was doing the procedure for the first patient with myopia and taught me how to do it. First to read the p