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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم It is still summer in Egypt. Current temperature is 36 degree celcius. And it is still Eid, streets are quiet from sounds. Usually I can literally hear car horn sound every 5 minutes. It is really unusual. Summer reminds me of a ghazwah (military expedition) called Tabuk, happened in 8th of Hijrah. Although no real fight occured between Islamic troops and Roman, it did play a great role in the history of Islam. If we go seeing date farm during this time, we would notice every single tree is full of dates without any exception. For the people who depend on dates as staple food, it is a big challenge to go for an expedition at this time. The will to sacrifice makes this ghazwah one of the most important event in Islamic history. There was a group of people at that time who did not take part in the ghazwah. They were not actually refused to join, but feeling hard to leave their farms. These people were not ordinary people. One of them was Ka'ab bin Male...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم We all know and hear a qoute saying 'do not work hard, work smart'. It is obviously not easy to do. Work hard is much simpler than work smart. We do not need to think much, just have extra effort and time. To work smart, it needs more than that. Sometimes we do not find an exact ways or formula to do it. All we need are creativity and courage. Smart people work and make decision wisely away from being driven by emotions and society's expectation. They free to do anything. Nothing but themselves control the direction.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم In any circumstances, rushing never be good. Even in a situation where a decision is needed immediately, rushing still does not have its place. I never believe that I have matured enough to make big decisions and to lead a family. But some decisions I believe that I have made them after being finely discussed and maturely consider all the pros and cons. This time, however, I have been quiet rushing, in making a big decision, although I thought it was good enough. I still could blame some parties for indirectly pushing me. Still learning to be a mature guy. It is undoubtly not easy. May all my premature acts do not leave permanent dissapointments to the people who were involved in the situations. Rabbi yassir.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Following the norm of a developing country, political stage of my beloved Malaysia is getting hotter and hotter. To make a transition from a stage to a higher stage, instability is inevitable. Historian would not find it interesting to write a journal about Malaysia history if the story line was very simple and predictable just like the Sinetron drama. Just imagine if PR was stable and PAS had no conflict with DAP, General Election 14 result would be very easy to predict, and if a movie was made from it, surely no place for it in the box office. Conflicts and confrontations are normal processes in achieving bigger things. Especially the aim is to build an Islamic nation suitable and inclusive for everybody regardless their races or religions, the tribulations should be more challenging. These conflicts also have revealed the true colors of many people who were formerly hiding in suits of any forms as in robes, turban, songkok or tuxedo. It is easier ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم 17th of Ramadhan. It has been 17 days since the gates of Paradise are opened and the gates of Hell are closed. And it will remain so for about 12 days ahead. The environment in this month is literally superb. Allah's mercy is flooding in the street. Everybody is just feeling happy for no reason. Doing charity is not as hard as in other time. Everything is made easy. It is a miracle given by the only One who can do miracle. However since we are human, it is very normal to get tired and lose stamina. In a 10 km running, the toughest part is in the middle as you just finish a half backbreaking running and have to do it once again. Pain over pain. At that moment, what is most needed is to stay calm and slow down a bit to not get fainted in the middle of the road. The thing is not to stop or else it is almost over as you start walking, it needs a great effort to get back to the phase you had before. Have someone to follow from behind. We do not want to ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم To compare between Egypt and Malaysia, doubtlessly the homeland would be superior in most aspects. However, regarding Ramadhan, Egypt is far better leaving Malaysia. I never understood the meaning of "The Month of Al-Quran" until I came here. Formerly the phrase just lived in tazkirah and articles. The Qiyam prayer (tarawikh) especially is very touching that rarely can be found in Malaysia unfortunately. May this Ramadhan be better than before. May Allah forgive us all. -------------------------------------------------------------- Future is completely blind  to human. We never know, yet may predict, what will happen even a second after. I never thought of studying abroad. Being in the last class in most of the time during secondary school, making studying abroad an utopia for me. Then now I am here thousand miles from homeland. I never thought of speaking Arabic and English in real, not memorizing scripts to be presented in class. Then now I...

بسم الله الرحن الرحيم Streets are decorated with  lanterns. Shops and restaurants are being lighten by colorful lights. Mosques are spreading greeting cards titled Ramadhan Kareem Allahu Akram . People are smiling and spreading salam when meet. These are none other than the signs that the awaited Ramadhan is coming! This is the month of Al-Quran, the month of reflection, and the month of good deeds. The ultimate output and reasons of the existence of this one month divine program is to give us a chance to make a change. A change from a good person to the best person beneficial to not just muslim but to all mankind because Islam never came to muslim only yet to every single thing exists in this world. May Allah guide us to go through this Ramadhan with success. Marhaban Ya Ramadhan!

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم It is hard to fly high, being a respected and known person in a society. It is even harder to keep being humble in spite holding those titles. We never know how we are going to behave when blessed with money and positions unless we have them. Having just known by our small society and being pointed as a leader is just very small that we do not have much to lose. Despite criticising corrupt leaders, or even ulama', just be fair to ourselves. Rememeber that we always have 100 percent chance to be like them or even worse when being in their position. Do criticise and reflection. One of the best trait so far I know to be in a best leader is humble. I met that kind of leader and I swear being very happy to work with him. No being-controlled feeling. No hesitation to ask silly questions. No offence in giving any kind of opinions. That is the true leader! To guide not to control. With low wings, everybody or anything can be murabbi. Seniors, juniors, ch...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم It is typical. When something weird, or I may consider it stupid, appears in the social media, it will be undoubtly viral. Dubsmash is the latest I guess. Contrarily, the more important issue like Rohingya refugee becomes the least to be concerned. Poor people. We rather choose to share stupid things. Another viral weird thing is the song Kun Anta . The song is not but the videos of its song cover by girls, especially the tudung labuh girl. Despite the fact that the song has its own quality, it is the girl that makes it viral. Eventually, people start to forget GST, 1MDB and DS Najib issues that they strongly fight against. Humans are easily distracted when they have no clear and ultimate aim to chase. Later, all of these issues will be completely forgotten. After a while another issue will appear. That is how the cycle repeats. We need to choose what to read and to watch. Taking everthing is not the right way.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Of course we should do that. Rasulullah said that if we want to ask for jannah, ask for the highest. The problem here is to have the determination to stay along the route towards it. I want to graduate with mumtaz, being the best intern, taking MCRP and being a subspecialist doctor by the age of 35. Then to own my own hospital which is the most cozy and comfortable hospital in Malaysia. I also want to do charity, giving free services and help people around. I dream all these. The aim is crystal clear but the path is still dimly lit. The challenge is to create a synergy between the dream and the path to achieve it. Having discussion with experienced people has taught me that learning from others is extremely important as to not wasting time and to be better than the previous generation. We do not want to create a plateau generation, or even worse a declining one. Despite all that, faith is the most important factor. It may sound  cliché but it is ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Do not estimate the power of focus. A person can only be extraordinarily success when focus is there. Focus in not just a particular time, study for example, but focus as the worldview of life. In life, focus is a need, not a choice. Doing too many things in a time makes none of the single things becomes a revolutionary finding. If we take a close look on the history of Renaissane, the starting point of the success of West world was after the French Revolution in 1789. What happened from that moment was people started to focus on what they were doing. Prior revolution life was restricted by the church. People could not do as they liked and everything just became stagnant. Post revolution revealed an ultimate liberty for the western people and they started to focus their thoughts on physics, economy and politics without being distracted by the church. The very fundamental of our Ad-Deen is the syahadah لا إله إلا الله. Just look at the first thing bef...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم This questions keeps singing in my head. Still I don't know what kind of doctor I want to be or should I be. Being a doctor is tough especially when being a specialist in any critical specialities as Obstetric and Gynaecology, Cardiology and Surgery. One of the biggest concerns is time. Do I just want to be in the hospital serving physically unhealty people all day? When to serve people outside the hospital?  I can't merge those two groups of people, in the hospital and outside the hospital. The population going to hospitals is too small and most of the problem don't originate from these people. Since I am always taught to directly serve people in the society, I just can't imagine how to do so when being inside the hospital most of the time. Of course serving sick people is a very undeniable noble job. Many hadith telling us to visit sick people and give them present. Their prayers are very precious. However, our deen doesn't teac...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم One-week travel with Ust Fadzil feels like living 10 years more. He always had something to tell us. From the first time he joined tarbiyah till he is right now. And the best part is regarding business! Indeed, we don't need to do much mistakes nor trial and error. What we need is to learn from others experience so that we can do much better from them. All of sudden, when I went back home, I felt like being someone else. I just couldn't have the same language as they had. Conversations with them were just like talking to new people. I need to adapt the new language I have right now. Setting > Language > Ikhwah > Friends Loading....

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم At the end of the day, what helps us the most is what we learn, not the result. In fact, mistake usually plays a better teacher than being correct all the time. Just read the stories of great people. Most of them, all of them, actually did mistakes much more than we do before becoming what they are today. What determines a legend is what happens post-mistakes. Few days back, we had a group assignment presentation. Sadly, we did something not related to the title given, early diagnosis of primary open angle glaucoma (POAG). What we did instead was typical diagnosis of POAG. I might be the one first to be blamed, as the role of referring the doctor, Dr Ahmed El Sawy, was on my shoulder but I did not do it well enough. The head of department of department 12 of Ophthalmology, Dr Khalid seemed to not accepting our presentation. He even asked our presenter to stop if the presentation did not corresponding to the title. Things happened and life goes on. ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم People usually tend to fell stress and mad at something when it is against our expectation or interest. It is logic and normal as a human. On the contrary, good things would be percieved well despite being unexpected, even percieved better when it does. If I was asked a question, "what is the most important and valuable thing you got being in tarbiah?", the answer would be the way of perceiving things. Things that have changed my life 360 degree. The rest of the changes, I name them side changes, come after the primary change. The former changes are things that most people, who I believe having sound hearts, are doing for nothing but to treat diseases in the society. The most effective way, however, in treating the diseases is by doing the later changes, the way of perceiving things it is. I used to fell regret being in Egypt, despite it was not my first choice, for stress stimuli are everywhere to trigger me. There are not so much things t...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم One of the most basic yet very important right should be given to others is to fulfill promise especially something related to time. When a date is agreed, then it must be obeyed by everyone involved in it. Since it is related to others right, we might take their time unconsciously. We never know how much they have sacrificed just to be early as agreed. Time is more expensive than gold. Stealing time is a lot worse than stealing gold. And that is the very reason why harisun 'ala waqtihi is there among the ten muwasofat tarbiah.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Two groups of people who are worth talking with, older people and children. The former group is due to precious experiences they have which never could be find elsewhere. The later is for they are innocent, free from bad thoughts and selfishness. Chatting with coevals would just make me having too much jokes with not so much benefits as the two groups before. Future is one of the most creepy thing in this world. Everybody wants to know what is in front of them in the next 10 or 20 years. The service of tukang tilik  which was(I am not sure today) very famous among Malay emphasizes the fact that everybody wants to know their future. Nobody really cares a lot as regard their past history compared to what is in front of them because they could not change it.  Each time thinking and discussing about future, my plan always changes, not because I am hesitated yet due to refinement of understanding from time to time. Of course it is quite horrible ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Fashion usually gives a false definition on what is actually called needs. Everybody wants to live happily in this world as in fashion designer, businessman, product saler, etc. They promote their products not because they really want to help us having a better life, some may, but to give themselves a better life. They just want money so as they could buy foods, drinks, pay house rent and be happy. If we could think wisely, why things like busana muslimah which is obviously not practically used in normal daily lives is sold and promoted? Oh God, who on earth wants to wear those overatted, abnormal designs. It is designed and made not primarily for the muslimah to cover their aurat or intimate parts. The initial objective is money, yes money. We do not need to follow all kind of mainstream particularly fashion. It steals our money a lot which is better to spend on something else. Practically speaking, when we buy an updated designed shirt, we do nothing t...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم My dear batchmate, Azmi was admitted to hospital two days back. He went through an appendectomy operation, Egyptians sound it 3amaliah ziyadah . The doctor removed his appendix, an extra part of cecum which does not have a definite function than a business for surgeons, as far as I know at least.  The background story of his case was quite tragic by the way. One week before, he went to see a doctor and had been missdiagnosed as having intestinal obstruction. The doctor prescribed him antibiotics and prokinetics as normal medications for a case of intestinal obstruction. Later on after several days passed, no reliable improvement could be seen. He went again to see a doctor, another doctor, Dr Sahir she was. Pain felt in his right iliac region drove Dr Sahir to do ultrasound examination. Once confirmed appendicitis, she scolded friends who brought Azmi to the hospital for not bringing him earlier as his appendix had ruptured! Perotinitis had occur...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Today in outpatient clinic, I met an old woman aged nearly 80 years old with acute attack of angle closure glaucoma. She seemed to be very in pain with red eyes, and could not open her eyes for a long period. The doctor even could not do an applanation tonometry as she constantly moving her eyes. At last, the doctor just took her off with some medications.  She came with a 30-year-old-like woman. When the doctor asked the woman what is the age of the patient, she replied that she don't know it. An old woman like that came to clinic with a woman who didn't know her age. Sounds weird. I bet she was not her daughter. Another question pops out. Where are her children? With whom does she live? I wonder what would Egypt's president Abdel Fattah Al-Sisi and the previous corrupt leaders answer in front of Allah in the Mahsyar. Egyptians live in suffer while they sleep on money. Allahumman suril islam wal muslimeen.