What Kind Of Doctor You Want To Be?

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

This questions keeps singing in my head. Still I don't know what kind of doctor I want to be or should I be. Being a doctor is tough especially when being a specialist in any critical specialities as Obstetric and Gynaecology, Cardiology and Surgery. One of the biggest concerns is time. Do I just want to be in the hospital serving physically unhealty people all day? When to serve people outside the hospital? 

I can't merge those two groups of people, in the hospital and outside the hospital. The population going to hospitals is too small and most of the problem don't originate from these people. Since I am always taught to directly serve people in the society, I just can't imagine how to do so when being inside the hospital most of the time.

Of course serving sick people is a very undeniable noble job. Many hadith telling us to visit sick people and give them present. Their prayers are very precious. However, our deen doesn't teach us to just do good deeds but to do the most important one. The government is not doing its job well, social problems are saturating and they badly need a guide. I can play my role in the hospital, my other colleagues will do the rest. Will that sufficient?

This thing bothers me quite hard. The journey of searching the ultimate and productive way to serve the society is an endless job. Current Mursyidul Am is a veterinarian, not far from my future career and he did very well in his life. The conflict between being a doctor and lack of chance of serving society is due to lack of understanding the thariq amal. I do and always believe that medicine is the best field for me. The challenge is to figure out the best way to contribute through this noble field.