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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Exam is over. Parasites went smoothly and my winter break has started. Last night the university announced the extension of vacation for two weeks ended up with a month break. It was a good news and also a bad news on the other side. The good one is I can spend more time for extracurricular activities and of course to compensate what I'll loose for the the first 2 weeks of the break by reason of my subconscious, egocentric decision. The bad part is the final exam will may be delayed and if the circumstance happened, summer break will be cut down. Or if not, the curricular schedule will be badly packed and ferrari lectures will take their place. For sure that's gonna be worse. Lately Malaysia has been filled with many issues; COMANGO, kalimah Allah, the Malaysian family in Sweden. These issues have gotten attentions from many parties. Each gave their opinions and it has conspicuously showed the true colours of them. These issues were translated d...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم I made a decision without telling  the one I should discuss with. I just did it for the sake of myself. Eventually, it caused a lot of troubles. Great.  So I told my naqib regarding my selfish decision and he just simply replied,  "moga Allah permudah" I didn't know how to respond. His words gave numbers of meanings that keep haunting me. I was the one who made the decision, so I have to bear it.

بسم الله الرحمن الحيم A blinding flash of white light, Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight, People running for cover, Not knowing whether they're dead of alive, They came with their tanks and their planes, With ravaging fiery flames, And nothing remains, Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze, We will not go down, In the night without a fight, You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools, But our spirit will never die, We will not go down, In Gaza tonight. Women and children alike, Murdered and massacred night after night, While the so-called leaders of country afar, Debated on who's wrong or right, But their powerless words were in vain, And the bombs fell down like acid rain, But through the tears and the blood and the pain, We can still hear that voice through the smoky haze, We will not go down, In the night without a fight, You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools, But our spirit will n...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Happy birthday to our beloved Prophet pbuh. His efforts have made us a better person today that knows who is Allah and what should we do in this temporary planet. Keep saying selawat and pray for our brothers all over the world. I watched Hitler movie last few weeks and I found that the movie was great even though my housemates said that it wasn't. I somehow have got admired to Hitler. Lulz. Not because of his ideology but of his great personality and confidence. He came from an ordinary family. He had a very high aversion towards the Jews as he claimed that the Jews had been the causes of the destruction of Germany. The Jews took their money and abuse them. So he formed a team to spread and struggle his ideology against the Jews. In a short time, he managed to attract many people and had become a great political party that finally ruled Germany. He died through suicide and his story ended there. In that story, Hitler was not a big guy physically...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم We live in a community. We have family, friends, mates, neighbours, teachers and lecturers. Our life is interdependent with each other. Mother loves her son and the son reciprocates by being nice to his mother. Friend needs friends so that he can spend his time with them. One completes the other one so it forms a complete mutual cycle. Same principle applies to the relation between us and environment. We give carbon dioxide and take oxygen from the tree. We give the cattle food so that we can have grilled beef. Heh. When we say about living in an interdependent cycle, each problem occurs in the middle of the cycle will affect the whole course of the cycle. If the tree takes oxygen instead of carbon dioxide, human population will die. Also if the cattle doesn't eat the food given, maybe it will eat us. Err, grilled human. I bet it will not gonna be pleasant. The problem is when the element in the cycle doesn't play its role and in this case, the e...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم I've been here for 3 years and I don't think that I've gotten myself a better person or at least a different person in a good way. I went to Faris' home and he served me some food and drinks. We talked a lot and I really like that moment. When he gave me some taujihat I somehow felt a bit awkward. Lulz. Obviously my heart has turned badly dark. Then I realized that I've gone quite far from the supposed atmosphere. I miss the atmosphere living with people who have the same thought as me. I don't get that much here.  I created my own team last year and we'd planned everything. Suddenly coup de tat happened and all my team members went back to Malaysia continuing their studies there. Great. I lost my team in a blink of an eye. I don't want to blame As-Sisi but he also take part in this case. He did the coup! So now I am really craving for a new team and I'm dreadly dying. Yet it's nonsense to regret and craving for so...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم When you have an intention to do something, and you have been very sure that it is a good deed and gives more benefit than harm, then just do it. Put away all the hesitation 100 feet under the sea. It is syaitan who hesitates you. He says that your doing isn't good. People will throw you away and don't want to be friend with you. You will lose your money, power and time. And say (O Muhammad pbuh) "Do deeds! Allah will see your deeds and (so will) His Messenger and the believers...."  [At-Taubah:105] We are asked to just DO it and leave the rest to Him. Easy huh? Yeah because it is always easier said than done. I had experienced it and it really sucks. I was hesitated and suddenly someone did the thing that I had intended to do. Nothing happened instead it went greater than I thought. Congratulations. Peace

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم [Train sound] N: Have you bought the ticket? M: Oh. Where should I buy it? N: Oh God, how can you don't know? You should have bought it last week. M: Hmm. I am sorry. So how can I get it? N: There (pointing to ticket counter and the queue was very long) M: How can I get it, the queue is very long! N: I told you to buy it last week. See what happened now. --------------------- [Train was about to move] Conductor: Hurry up! Train is moving! --------------------- N: Train is moving. I have to go now. M: Can you please wait for me untill I get the ticket? N: Sorry, I can't. It's too late. (N entered the train) --------------------- M: Ah wait! I got the ticket already! (M tried to catch the train but he failed) --------------------- [The train left]

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم 7th of January is a Christmas Day for the Coptic Christians. Here in Egypt, the day is declared as a public holiday. In the high political temperature of current Egypt situation, anything can happen when there is a public holiday. Egyptians are highly unpredictable. They can march, fight, throwing bottles, and even shoot a gun. Everything might happen and had happened before. So we have been warned to be more cautious during this day. Anyhow alhamdulillah, nothing bad happened up till now. Everything went as usual. May God help the Egyptians to bring back their country to a better state. I was thinking to find a new thinkmate. All my thinkmates have gone to Malaysia continuing thier studies there. So I am here alone. It is been a long time to not discuss about heavy topics or issues. My mind has starved from those things. If things continue like this, my mind may be atrophied. Our minds are just like muscles. When we work them, they will grow. Otherwise ...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Today I met officers from my sponsor, JPA. There were two of them, En Zikril and En Sharif. I was the first to enter the room. How excited I was. Actually I went early because my friend asked me to help him settle about food for the meeting. We talked a lot especially about future planning. En Zikril said that our future job as a doctor is uncertain. Anything might happen as number of medical graduates is increasing every year. We have to super struggle from now. One of us asked how if we don't pass the post-graduate interview for the housemanship. En Zikril answered that we have to apply for another interview but also there is still a chance for not getting a job as a doctor even you have graduated as a medical bachelor. So cool huh? Everybody frowned and started to think of what will happen in the future. Some of us may have regretted choosing medicine. Lulz. Then they continued asking any other occasions that might happen. Ah great. They have crea...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم I just realized that I haven't made any post since 4 months ago. Wow. After my friend from Jordan poked me at my Facebook wall by posting my blog's link, I almost forget that I have a blog. To give reasons, I don't have any. Yeah. Let's start up again. Today is the start of the journey of mid-year examination for the third-year student of Kasr Al-Aini Medical School. We started with the hardest subject, Pathology. Everything went smooth except for three questions. Two of them were totally made me screwed because I didn't read that parts well. Anyhow the third question made me unsatisfied because the question was a not-should-be-asked question. This kind of question that has made me feel the karma of being an exam-oriented student that I am always want to running from it. I don't target for A. I just hope that what I am memorizing and studying will be usefull practically in my life as a doctor or a muslim. I am not interested i...